Right after I took this video Jonah crawled to me saying “mamama” the whole way. I had Nick on the phone and he was crying which made me cry…I knew this would be hard but I guess it’s hard to really understand how hard it is until you’re there. I wish so badly that Nick could be here to see Jonah grow and develop.

To Nick: I miss you SO much already. I love you more than I can tell you. I want you to know that I always kiss Jonah twice and tell him I love him twice, once for you and once for me. We can’t wait to see you again. You will be on our minds all the time. I promise you Jonah will know who you are. And I promise to take pictures and videos every step of the way so that you can be as much a part of it as possible.